I'd trade all these views for a chance. Just a chance to see my dad again. You don't know what it's like... I see so many happy people I see so many happy families and I just think about my dad even more. Sometimes my thoughts of him are encouraging, sometimes I'm thinking about the girl that will replace the empty feeling that I have does she care about me like I care for her. Then I see a mom and dad. Then I see a father and son, then I see my dad's face, in my head that's all I can see all I can think is what he looks like. Is he thinking of me. You don't understand what it feels like. It feels like tears are part of my daily routine. Everything I do reminds me of him. What I love most is the love he left in my heart to be just as inspiring to others as he was to others and to me. There are those days though that I find myself the loneliest. You don't know how it feels and if you do, I'm sorry. I know how you feel. You feel like throwing up your guts you feel like crying yourself to sleep. You feel the loneliest. You feel like you've lost half of yourself, and searching for the lost half is all you can do. That's why I write, because I've found the loneliest times of my life aren't as lonely as I think they are. I'm always making positive vibes out of the negative and that's what I want those people that feel my pain to do. Listen to some music and vibe out. Write down what you feel and do what you love, don't be upset to the point where you feel stressed out. Your dad wouldn't want that. My dad wouldn't either. Yes I'd give all these views for a split second with my dad, all the money in the world, I'd give it if I had it. The world is tough so it's up to you to make life grand, no matter how bad things get. No matter how messed up the plan you had set gets thrown off course. You live and you learn, se la vi. The tears will drop but the smile will conquer like the sun conquers the eye. Like the love conquers the heart. Like the moon conquers the night. Everything will be alright.
Here's some songs I was hearing while I write, and wright and right all my wrongs.
I hope you enjoi!
Rocketjrjr's loneliest times